Month: August 2013

Guess Akashik won’t be happening after all. Not for a long long while.

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The hard drive containing all of the finished Akashik characters, my DAZ stuff, and – most importantly – my paying work just died without warning. It was the newest of my drives, the biggest.  And before anybody harps at me about backups and other such stuff for people who have money, I didn’t have the money to have a drive big enough to contain what was in it to make a backup. So I didn’t have one.

Sometimes I tell my husband that I prefer my drives to be external to avoid this very event. When we bought the drive it was external. Drives got rearranged, cases got switched, and it ended up internal – which means it was getting hit with lots of Louisiana brownouts. Which means it’s not a surprise that it died suddenly so much as has me screaming very angrily at my computer gremlin, threatening him with homelessness that he would let this happen – not even a week after I finally managed to save enough to buy a backup battery pack to protect the computer from brownouts.  But I guess it was too late.

By the way, the two older drives that remained external are still alive and kicking.

Don’t know what I’m going to do. I mean, obviously I’m out of business as of tonight. I had to use the last of my money to refund a client who was supposed to have their work delivered today. Taking on new work is too big of a risk – I don’t know what else is dying and just can’t do it. And I can’t afford to repair, fix, and get things back up again.

Makes an aging lady cry, it does. A lot.

The Issue of Taus’s Rape

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Taus was raped: Heavenly Bride, a few pages ago. And I wasn’t expecting a large reaction, but some reaction wouldn’t have surprised me either. I did get some, too, from the people who speak to me personally.  Everyone now hates Lhung.

I mean, the guy walks in on the tail end of the event and shuns Taus as if she were the plague. Why wouldn’t everyone be mad at him? As one reader pointed out, though, it’s quite a lot like real life. And as another pointed out, they might have reacted that way themselves. And another couldn’t understand why it could happen at all, why he would react that way. Didn’t he love her?

Yes, he loves her. But put yourself in his shoes a bit. What has he seen? Did he see the rape, or has he seen her with other men taking sexual favors? What did he see when he walked in on her that day? He has only so much information to work with.

Someone amusingly pointed out that when it comes to this life, he’s also less than a year old as well. He’s a whippersnapper, all inexperienced and wet behind the ears. Or whiskers. Or whatever it is that Celestial Dragons have.

The issue with Taus’s rape for me, the writer goes beyond that though. I didn’t want to play a Red Sonja with this event – I didn’t want it to be the catalyst for something else because doing that is a very overdone tactic. But in Taus’s situation, it was also the only plausible one to push things forward. She’s a sexual object in the eyes of many around her; she’s not even sentient. She’s a thing. Poor little thing.

It’s over now, at least, and the events that happen after this will start showing other things. But I will tell you this: for Taus, that event will always be there much in the same way it will always be there for women who experience it in real life.

Just rambling.